Thursday, January 18, 2018

New Year, New Plan

I'm still alive!  2017 was a weird year, and to be honest, I had no qualms with it ending.  I know, the journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step, blah, blah, blah,  and you can start to change any day, but there's something so refreshing about a new year.  New planners.  New notebooks.  365 days to make new dreams come to true, to change who you are, and to magically morph into the person you were meant to be.  I say this with sarcasm, but yet, I always buy into "This is year, I'm going to finally get my shit together.'

So let's just recap 2017 quick shall we:

I switched jobs (twice).  I went from working as a health unit coordinator at the hospital, to being a bank teller, to being a health unit coordinator at a nursing home.  I took a big pay cut to leave the hospital, but with unreliable hours available and staying that way for the feature, I felt like I had to.  But, I learned being a bank teller is not for me, and gladly went back to HUCing, and the raise that came with it. 

Then I learned maybe being a HUC in a nursing home was not for me neither.  I ended up feeling overwhelmed, stressed, and eventually found myself crying in my bathtub at home, and then even crying at work, falling asleep at 7pm, only to be wide awake by 3am.  A trip to my wonderful nurse practitioner fixed me up with some antidepressants, which are little miracle pills.  I still have lots of feelings about medicating, but that's for another time.

I pretty much fell out of love with blogging all through the fall, and felt overwhelmed with not having fresh content, not having the right platform, not having a direction, not knowing what my direction was supposed to be, and just not having the time to commit to it.

I spent most the fourth quarter of the year sleeping and wishing a giant hole would open up in the earth and just swallow me up, but like I said, antidepressants are great, and I'm feeling like I may survive after all.

So instead of listing my monthly goals, I'm going to just give you a rundown of what I'm aiming for this year.  I'm setting goals too, but maybe that's for another time.

I want 2018 to be a year where I am:
  • More Productive
  • More Creative 
  • Better Christian
  • Better Friend
  • Less Wasteful
  • More Adventurous
So that means, getting rid of all the clutter- physical, mental, spiritual.  Using up what I have, whether it's salad dressing, paper, fabric, or books.  Spending more time reading my Bible, practicing what I preach.  Being thoughtful.  Sewing more, reading more, not wasting so much time on the Facebook,  Cooking healthy foods.  And, getting out of the house.  Trying new things.  Traveling with friends or family or by myself if I got to.

 So far I'm happy with how my year is going, but we're not even three weeks into it yet, so trying not to pat myself on the back too hard.  What are you shooting for this year?  How's it working for you so far?