Right now the number one thing making me feel this way is my job. I never went off to college, I've lived in the same zip code since I've been 12, and I work at a job that I'm perfectly competent at, and pays pretty decent for the area I live in, but I don't feel like it's where I'm supposed to be. Then I wonder if I made a wrong turn somewhere. I debate if I should go back to school, if I should find a different job, if I should just accept that everyone feels that way about their job.
And basically, I've come to the realization that there's no alternate life, only this one. And my life would have been different if I went to college or moved farther away, but not necessarily better. I probably would just have a different set of problems and personal weaknesses. I only have this one life so it's time to focus on the present.
That's why I picked Shake it Out for my song of the week. It's pretty much spot on. I chose the version with lyrics so you can read them while the song plays if you like.
I feel like I'm in a dry spell of life right now, but I need to focus on using that to prepare for what may come next. I don't know what that is, but I feel like God is giving me this time to get rid of some bad habits and work on character flaws, so that I'm ready for the next chapter.
And if you want to see what everyone is listening to this week, head over to My So Called Chaos for Musical Monday.